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Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Struck by Memories of a Vibrant Life


I moved a coat rack in the foyer and uncovered a framed 5x7 photograph hung on the wall that I snapped about 10 years ago in the Peruvian jungle. It's a picture of sunset over Rio Morona, near where it intersects with the Rio Amazonas.  My college friend, Ellen, and I, were sitting on the roof of a small passenger boat filled with leaders of the Ashuar Indian tribe after hitchhiking on tiny fishing boats from Ecuador to Peru.


Next to it was another framed 5x7 photo taken in the mountains on the way to Machu Picchu. We woke up at the break of dawn to start hiking.  It wasn't raining but a rainbow crossed from one mountain side to another. At the time it seemed like a magical welcome sign, like the entrance gate to Disney World. 


You know I've had these photos up for quite some time without thinking much about them - or maybe trying to not think much about them. Today, and in this particular moment, they struck me.  The calm blue grey hue of the water seemed the same shade of the walls in massage studios.   That color at the hardware store called Tranquil Blue. 

And the whole picture seemed washed out in a faded kind of way and I remember that's because the humidity in the air created an undeniable fog.  The rain-forest perspires constantly.  I remember the next day, before the boat docked in the city of San Lorenzo, there was this torrential downpour of warm rain.  It felt just like the derechos we get in Virginia summertime. It felt novel, refreshing and wondrous. 



When we made it to San Lorenzo we found a little cafe for breakfast serving coffee and rolls with butter.  A lady walked in with a baby monkey clinging to her shoulder. It was so cute and she wanted to sell it to me for five Sols.  I thought about how cool it would be to carry a little monkey around me for the rest of the trip but what I would do with it after it was time to leave.  Could I take it back to the US? Was it stolen from its mom?  Ellen talked me out of spending the $2 for the monkey, saying, "You don't know what kind of diseases it might have."


Looking at that picture it felt like a lifetime ago but I realized it had only been 10 years.  At the time I had the courage or maybe the stupidity to venture off into another country without knowing the language.  I traveled to and sought to hitchhike places the Lonely Planet guide didn't know anything about and I talked Ellen into going with me. I thirsted to learn about the world, to extend my horizons, to gain knowledge about different people and cultures, and to understand myself and my place better by seeing how other people lived.  It was an exercise in minimalism; I subsisted on as little as possible and spent as little money as possible.  One night we slept without a tent, on the sand in the river bank next to turtle tracks, aware that jaguars and alligators roam the jungle.  It felt so daring and so special.  



As I sat there staring at the photos, Tori climbed on my leg.  She'd been playing on the floor shaking seed packets for annual flowers I'd never got around to planting.  Periodically I fished colored erasures out of her mouth.  I picked her up, still facing the photographs.  These pictures represented my greatest achievement at the time and now I held my greatest achievement of the next 10 years.  



These kids are my new horizon and I learn more about psychology, my place in the world, life and the universe, though watching and contemplating them.  I could complain of serving them day in and out, but they are the beautiful landscapes I stare at mystified and the doorway to new friendships and experiences.  Every day is a grueling trek peppered with glimmers of smiles and giggles.  We bushwhack our way into the next segment of life, whatever adventure that may be.  



And so, for once, I didn't stare at the photos and feel untrue to my adventurous spirit for trading the travel bug in for a suburban family life. No, I looked at it and felt the air of the jungle, remembered the heat and the overcooked rice and dry plantains we ate for lunch every day.  I connected with the parallel journey I'm on right now.  Things are not better or worse now, just different.  And these pictures of beautiful places that are special to me are like the pictures I take of my kids.  I put them all up around the house to inspire me constantly to continue to live a vibrant life aligned with dharma.  

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Europe Diary - Communist Romania


The remaining evidence of a communist nation.  Apartments built by Ceaușescu during the 80's when he forced peasants out of their farms and into government created housing.  In the capitol city, he demolished historic housing units, making people sign over their homes to be leveled.  Apartment units were constructed in their place.   Every family had a government provided place to live back then.  If you had one child you were given an extra bedroom, two children of different sexes and you were given another, the bigger the family the bigger the apartment.  Birth control and abortion was outlawed, and families were encouraged to grow the nation as a duty.  However the food rationing and dire conditions of living discouraged many woman from going full term with their pregnancies and many had illegal underground abortions.  My great aunt had two children and eight abortions.  There is a 2007 Romanian film about this if you are interested called 4 Months, 3 weeks, and 2 days that won a Cannes Film Festival award.


Communism began turning sour in Romania in the 1980s, after the government took out huge IMF loan to payback debt.  Ceaușescu had attempted to make Romania an industrial powerhouse and built huge factories with capacity production higher than local and international demand.  After an oil deal with with Iran fell through following the 1979 Iranian Revolution, Romania needed a loan to pay off its international debt.  Romanians are hard workers, with a great deal of pride, and the government set a plan to pay back the loan as quickly as possible.  Unlike some of the EU countries now-a-days that are deferring on their debt in the face of economic crisis, the Romanian government stuck austerity measures unimaginable by European standards today.   This led to an era of blanketed poverty.  Babies died in neonatal units during power outages, people spent the night in in grocery lines to receive their food rations, and the government rewrote the food pyramid to reduce caloric intake and make the populace vegetarian.  You needed written permission to slaughter a pig.  It was totally crazy, but Romania paid off the debt on track.

My family (mom, uncle, grandfather and grandmother) left in 1969, well before the crisis began, but I guess my grandfather, Tata, recognized the danger ahead.  He was born in 1915 in the USA when his parents had spent many years working at a tobacco factory rolling cigarettes.  They had 5 pregnancies during that time, but only 2 of the children survived, the other died of small pox very young (like under 6 years old).  Tata tried using his dual US/Romanian citizenship to get out of the county.  For six years he lobbied and was put in jail, tracked by the special police, and basically on a shit list at a time when communism was actually pretty popular.  

In 1968 Romania stuck out from other countries in the Eastern Bloc due to Ceaușescu's defiant reaction to the Soviet Warsaw Pack invasion of Czechoslovakia.   Ceaușescu put Romania under the radar as beacon of rationality peaking from behind the iron curtain.  His actions drew the attention of America, and in August of 1969, President Nixon made a trip to visit the country and initiate trade between the USA and Romania, identifying Romania as a Most Favored Nation (MFN).  

In a July1969 State Department memo from the Chairman of National Security to Nixon, advising on improving relations with Romania, there is mention of my family, "Another important US concern, although not of an economic nature, is to help dual national and other in Romania eligible for emigration to the United States to leave Romania.  Despite Romanian pledges, progress has been slow.  Only some 100 of approximately 2,500 individual cases have been favorably resolved.  You might wish to couple an offer of MFN with the recommendation that Romania act to release these individuals, indicating that such action would increase Congressional receptivity."

My mom said that Romania ended up releasing over a 1000 families following Nixon's visit.  They left with no documents, no money, no idea how to speak a word of English.  They were not allowed to tell anyone, even relatives, they were leaving.  So these families basically just disappeared one day.  They were given notice in August, and in October they got on the plane, knowing they would possibly and probably never see anyone from their life there ever again. Tata was 55 at the time.  Can you imagine starting a whole new life at that age?   He had no intention of becoming successful or even learning English, he just wanted his kids to have a chance at a better future than what he believed Romania could offer.  A year later his mom, my great grandmother who had worked in the US cigarette factory died in Romania,  she had desperately wanted to visit, but wasn't allowed to leave.


 On the plane my grandmother sat next to the wife of the then VP of BMW, she had traveled to Romania to try to (unsuccessfully) buy her family out of the country.  She gave my grandmother $50, and that's what they started with.  That and some clothes are all they had when they landed on US soil.

A woman from the Trenton Catholic Church met them at the airport in New Jersey.  She helped them rent an apartment and find a job working at a factory.  I'm pretty sure that Tata was one of those, "I used to walk a mile in the snow with holes in my shoes." kind of guys.  

My mom was 17 when they came to the US and school in the states was so different than in Communist Romania.  There kids were perfectly behaved, obedient, submissive, and expected to maintain an educational standard much higher than in the US.  Teachers beat on desks with sticks to scare students into giving answers, and parents bribed teachers with chickens, money, and favors.  Her mom was a teacher and so some of the other teachers in her school knew they were leaving to the US.

A resentful teacher told her, "You think dogs walk around with pretzels for tails and money grows on trees there?"  

"No, I don't know what its like, I'm just going because my parents are going."  She responded.

Her favorite math teacher gave his blessing, "I have family in Germany and I would leave too if I could.  You are going to do great things there."

Math was her favorite subject, and when she met with the principle at her new school in Trenton she begged to take a math class.  Although she didn't know English, a Romanian priest from the local church came with her and translated.  The principle said that girls take Home Ec.  

"What's Home Ec?" she was confused.  

"It's cooking."  He stated definitively.

"I am good at math, can I take a math class?" she insisted.

He agreed to let her try Algebra and on the first day she started the class was having a test.  The teacher told her that she didn't need to take it since she hadn't studied the material.  But she asked to take it.  In 7 minutes she was the first one to finish the 40 questions and handed it in 100% correct.  It was easy x + 1 = 5 kind of stuff and she could have done it with her eyes closed.  The teacher said, "You could teach this class."

"No, I don't need to take this class." she replied.  

He then persuaded the principle to move her into Trig, and eventually into Calculus.  There were 2 other girls and 4 boys in that calculus class, even though -according to the principle- "Girls don't take math, they take Home Ec."


The dictatorship of Ceaușescu's communist leadership ended on Christmas 1989.  The Berlin wall fell in November, and while leaders from other countries in the Eastern Bloc were bowing out of power in the face of public disapproval, Ceaușescu insisted on keeping rule over his "children."  

A pastor from the western city of Timișoara had been criticizing the government during themes in his sermons. On Dec 21st the government ordered a bishop from the church to remove and evict him on grounds of inciting ethnic hatred.  Parishioners and students from the local university gathered around his house to protect him from eviction.   This eventually escalated to riots in the city, people taking over the National Communist Party headquarters, throwing communist documents out the windows and trying to burn it down.  The city police and special police couldn't stop the rioting.  Eventually the military moved in and turned the city into a war zone.  Two days of dispute in Timișoara killing 80 - mostly students.  

The government controlled media censored the event.  Word of the riots traveled by mouth across the country side, and although only 80 people had been killed, the rumors told of thousands.  A couple cold days later Ceaușescu finally addressed the rumors by radio, stating they were "interference of foreign forces in Romania's internal affairs" and an "external aggression on Romania's sovereignty."


The banner of decent became the Romanian flag with the socialist emblem cut out of the center.  We still see the flag flying in front of the town hall in my mom's home city of Arad.  Arad is only a half hour away from Timișoara, and became another hot spot for fighting in the days of the revolution.  My cousin was in 4th grade at the time and says it was a really scary couple days where they hid in their house, hearing the police firing on the people in the streets.  


Some bullet holes remain on the beautiful edifice of the town hall building.


 Twenty-four years later fresh flowers still adorn the memorial for the protesters killed during the revolution.  The pictures of each man surrounding the obelisk.



A grave site at the city cemetery dedicated to those men killed during protests.  When we walked by, and I asked what the special grave was, my great aunt only said, "The Heroes."  




 In just four days following the riots at Timișoara, Ceaușescu and his wife were killed by firing squad.  The police eventually turned to the side of the people, and started waving the flag with the hole in the center.  Ceaușescu's cabinet staged a cue.  First they advised him to take a helicopter ride out of the capitol where the pilot tricked him into landing, bouncing the copter up and down and saying it was coming under anti-aircraft fire.  After landing, Ceaușescu and his wife hijacked a car.   The petrified driver mislead them into stopping to hide at the building where he worked.  There the driver contacted the police, who took Ceaușescu and his wife in armored vehicles to a spot where they had a quick two hour trial.  He was charged with genocide, subversion, destruction of public property, undermining the national economy, and trying to flee the country.  The judge was wearing a sweater and a pair of jeans, and even the lawyers appointed for Ceaușescu's defense argued for the death penalty without appeal.

The firing squad executed him and his flailing wife on the spot.  They say for every bullet Ceaușescu took, his wife took 10.  She was seen as the most vicious, as unsympathetic, and as personally responsible for advocating the policies that induced suffering of the people. 



Twenty four years later the country is aging.  Colorful, intricately decorated buildings crumble.  The evidence of a once - like a long time ago - booming city fades and withers.  The above buildings haven't been retouched in 80 years.


Historic, once luxurious apartments with stained glasses, wall paper and high ceilings; now the quiet community of mostly elderly owners.




We visited the old home of my mom's cousin.  She now lives in the US too and has for over 30 years.  My mom remembers them playing in this courtyard with the other neighborhood kids for hours each day.  Now dark, quiet, and falling apart.  


We saw a bunch of hopeful signs, like nice new restaurants, buildings just now starting to get renovated, and well dressed and happy young people.  The Christmas market smells of pastry and buttered corn, while kids ride around the square on scooters and tricycles.  Christmas was outlawed during communism.  





But what I unfortunately heard from people is that most want to leave, the new government is corrupt, you need connections to make any good money, and most of the country is still very poor.  And now without the controls around emigration and censorship, young people travel and easily know the amenities and first world opportunities elsewhere.  Many of them are leaving Romania.







But I found it so charming, I loved the simplicity of the towns in the countryside, the kindness and fun energy of the people, the delicious home cooked food, and so much more.  I really loved visiting Romania and told everyone.  

In high school a friend showed me a copy of the Communist Manifesto.  My mom was home and saw.  She immediately flipped out on him, "Get that book out of my house!  Out of my house!" And she chased him until he left it in his car.

At 17 my mom didn't know exactly why they were leaving Romania, and wouldn't have chosen to do so on her own.  Knowing what she knows now, she says with a steady gaze and almost a tear shimmering from her eyes, "I would kiss the ground Richard Nixon walks on."

She can give some examples of ways her life in Romania was superior to the US, especially gender equality at the time, woman held the same jobs as men all the way up the ladder.  But what bothers her most is that people weren't allowed to leave, weren't allowed to travel, visit family, or move somewhere else if they wanted.  Rules were decided by someone else, and seemed irrational, but if you broke them you could be jailed or killed.  

If you live in the US look back in your own history and I'm sure you'll find a story like this somewhere.  Anyone who lives in the country came from some kind of struggle.  If you have a lineage of immigrants, then they made a scary choice to leave what they knew behind with the hope of a better future for their children.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

First Family Bike Ride

Kaio's 6 and Nala's 4, Sunday we took our first family bike ride out of the neighborhood and where everyone rode his/her own bike.  We rode about half a mile down a bike trail and through the Reston Town Center on a mission for milk shake.  Nala rode really slow, well her wheels were the smallest.  But either Mari or I needed to walk our bike next to her - she was that slow.  Kaio did great and biked the whole way keeping a safe speed and without complaining of being tired.  He's got a silly habit of looking behind him and then loosing balance and falling, this happened at least three times.  "Watch where you are going, look forward!"  I holler to try to remind him.



Our pilgrimage to Silver Diner ended in success and each of us ordered our own milk shake.  Nala made a big deal to the waiter about needing a pink straw.


Since we had a whole trip back and Nala lagged so much on route to the destination, we needed to figure out how to return Nala back home.  She was too tired to bike and the sun was setting, the air cooling.  It was the kind of tense situation that could have easily gone sour; one of us getting upset or frustrated.  I suggested leaving Nala's bike at the diner and retrieving it by car.  Then Mariano ingeniously devised a system for taxiing her back.


When we made it home without any fight, meltdown, or injuries it felt like a triumph.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Heading to Brazil

Did I mention we head to Brazil in a couple weeks?  Last trip I walked on the plane, wistful to pack up our home and immigrate back BEACH of HARMONY.  These recent two weeks gurgled by with mayhem of Kaio starting afternoon preschool and me trying to get paperwork kosher for our visas.  You don't want to know about the bombshell pain in the @s$ I sustained from the Consulate.  I trucked in to DC three times in the last week, kids in tow.  Four agencies, 2 trips to CVS for passport photos, 5 parking meters, and $480 later; we should be cleared for take-off (knock on wood)  Ahhh  Breath!  It's going to be worth it once we're there with grandma to bear hug the little ones.

Very special beech on an Island that only got on the grid two years ago (Algodual)

When your post office address is: That third house to the left of the big mango tree, 5 kilometers downriver from Bragas

A small shanty town by the port in Manaus

My favorite building in Belem, a tree grows inside.  I'm plan on taking a better pic this year

Over 30 types of fruit pulp for sale, freshly pressed from fruits grown on nearby islands

The natural remedies section of the ver-o-peso (translates to "see the weight") market.  Everything from cough medicine to herbal viagra 

Busy streets of Belem

yuuuuummmmy coconut water for sale in the old town

fishing boats docked at the old town

Favorite past time.  Usually women do not go to the games, but American girls make the exception

Sleeping in hammocks

Dusk on the streets of Manaus
All these pictures were from my trip in 2005 with a $500 Sony Cyber Shot, smaller than the SLRs but manual features and a nice lens.  My compact Kodak camera during the 2007 and 2009 trips just didn't cut it.  I couldn't find a single crisp shot worth posting.  I'm hoping to happen upon some nice photogenic opportunities this time around with my Cannon D-SLR.  Just gotta keep the big camera incognito.
2005 me (pre-kids)

Yoga Instructor Training begins next weekend.  Let's forecast some yoga related postings in the future.

Today I attended an Open House for the local acupuncture school I daydream of attending.  They're extremely inviting, AND offered me a work study opportunity :).  We didn't discuss details but made a date to come back in after Brazil.  My long term vision: to enroll full time and work towards the Masters of Science in Oriental Medicine once both kids are in school.

But it doesn't take much to inspire me.  Give me a slide presentation on your Acupuncture school accompanied by some dope Korean food, and I'm about ready to sign up.  I've been deliberating a career in acupuncture for 4 years now.  If I'd taken the leap back then, I'd have a practice today.   I'm still loving being a Full Time Mama.  You'd have to drag me back to IT Quality Assurance kicking, screaming, with fingernails scratching down the sides of the wall.  But Nala's still three years off from kindergarten, so maybe I could fit in a couple evening classes to get rolling down the path to the promise land.

And finally,  Kaio strapped on his cleats (a freecycle score - hells yeah!) for our first ever soccer class (also free).  Can you tell I'm stoked with taping into the cost-less area resources?
training for World Cup

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