A Turning Point

I send my application to acupuncture school today! Yipee off it goes. It feels right, it feels really right, and every thing seems to fit. My plans, my clothes, and the dishes even all fit in the dishwasher. So now I've got two happy days under my belt and my aura is glowing with potential. Our home value seems to be moving out of the red, which got my man and I delighted about being able to move to some farm land in the maybe not too distant future. He wants to raise all kinds of crazy animals that he's been researching, like alpaca and some other creatures that I forgot. I even got a call back for an interview for one of the jobs I applied for. But I'm not planning on going, I'm really serious about acupuncture and I'm putting all my eggs in that basket. It just took me a few years of doing something else to realize what I want my career to be. I'm kinda slow that way. Even after high school I took a year off and worked at Party City, to realize that college was the way to go. So now my time working in IT has been a necessary step in my maturing process. I know that most people know what they want to do or be early. But It took me a few years to really decide what I want to be when I grow up.

I don't remember feeling this anxious and excited since before Nalini was born. M and I were so in impassioned back then. But, then the extra responsibilities of having two children became a lot for us to handle and we lost some energy for each other. These last couple weeks we've hit a bit of a grove and things are easing up. I know its not going to last of course, but I'm writing about it so I can look back in a couple months and remember that there was a time when life seemed manageable.