I'm such a bad mother. I flipped out and hit my kid. I smacked him after the second time he screeched at the top of his lungs, "No!!!" Then I said I didn't care about what happened to him anymore and ran out of the room.
I know I'm not supposed to do these things now-a-days. We shouldn't use violence, use derogatory language, admit that we're vulnerable to emotions and can tip out of control. This is my confession booth.
I could blame it on this being the way I've been raised. My dad used to react the same way though our power struggles, where I dared him to make it hurt more.
But I know that's no excuse. I need to be better than the past. and as Mari points out, I'm modeling overreaction to Kaio.
i just don't know what to do sometimes. He doesn't listen. He pushes and pushes and pulls me, literally and figuratively. He's totally insane. He gets frustrated very easily, cries and flails his legs. He wont respect limits or directions, even those that regard his safety or the safety of those around him. If I could, I'd give up. That's how I feel right now.
Any suggestions? I'm all ears.