Not happy about how much I have been working and preoccupied with work. For the last 2 weeks I have been swamped, and also been unable to 'leave it at the office'; I am always thinking about work! It is awful simply awful. Today I had to explain to Nalini's daycare that the reason that I didn't bring milk for Nalini was because I was too busy to pump. What kind of mother am I to be too busy to provide milk to my baby?! It is bad enough that I have to give it to her through a machine instead of my breast. I couldn't believe that I thought being too busy was a valid excuse. They also told me that she cries at 5:30 when the parents start to come and puts on her jacket by herself and goes to wait by the door. My little baby wants me. I usually don't see he until 6:30 when Mari brings them home. That only gives me an hour and a half of play time with them, and usually I have to spend it making dinner.
It is no life, and def not a good work life balance. I am lobbying to get a work from home day to cut down on driving and prep for work time. I really need to keep good on my New Year's resolution to do more yoga because it creates an opportunity to turn off the work noise for a bit. That noise has been incessant for the last few weeks. I never want to forget that my kids are much more important than my silly job, but it has been tough lately as I gain high-profile responsibilities and tasks. Need to keep myself in check and not get carried away with it all. Need to cut my hours down to 40 per week!